Tuesday, January 16, 2007
it's not always rainbows and butterflies.
today is a totally bad day.at the beginning of this entry i wud lyk to state that i feel lyk barfing so that if any point i get cranky,it might actually trigger fluids inside of mi and i might actuali barf all over the screen so i'm sorree if you wun be able to see some of the words clearly.
now i begin.
to give you an idea of how much i didn't enjoy choir today,i'm putting it in the first line of my day.
I DIDN'T ENJOY CHOIR TODAY.i know things can't go my way but why must1)all my friends be separated from me.
2)which forces me to actually make friends with ppl i don't lyk cuz they have super qian bian faces.(which i will touch on more later)
3)they be so serious about whether ppl actually come for practice.hello.some ppl are not exactly committing here.their just trying out choir okayy they have open options.strict is one thing but don't act as if they are already in the choir.this is first 3 mths we're talking about.i know you guys got gold but so wad?don't make it a big deal.your just pissing ppl off and very soon ppl will start quitting and i'm gonna find that haha hilarious okayy.
so to touch on my second point.WHY DO I HATE PPL WITH QIANBIAN FACES SO MUCH?i know it's not lyk my face not qb.but i can't help it their face just damn qb.but i realise that by dng this i'm not exactly helping myself because hate is something you do NOT wanna accumalate.well at least it doesn't make my life better.i wish i cud just not think that ppl's face veh qb man.
so yes.and another point is why i can't accomodate the whole world.i try but i can't really.and i know there isn't really such a thing.but when ppl get unhappy it just makes me (wanna barf) unhappy oso.like.omg.i dunno luh.but ppl are nv happy with what i do.sometimes i sacrifice alot just to do little things which aren't really appreciated and i have suddenly no idea what i'm talking about right now.
yes i have a very confused mind.you know what?ppl dun like mi.FINE.their pasar okayy i'm DONE being nice to everyone cuz in the end i'm the one that's miserable.and when i'm miserable i want to barf.i tink this is some kinda sickness i must find out soon.
like i wanna be a loser man.like maybe a loner.no friends.no boyfriend.nothing.no one to pls.they don't exactly have a life but at least they do what they like.but no.i can't be a loser.because that's me.charmaine chia.forever wanting to be in the forehead.
go piss yur head off charmaine.and go barf your fucking intestines out.you SUCK.
-living in a shadow.of someone else's dream.>
Posted by char at 10:04 PM